I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more to be than a good dancer.

2011-01-30T16:26:00.002+08:00

I am quite lost.
I choose to believe in my own instinct.
And I don't know if I should.
Its a complicated feeling.
I need some advices.
-Can't live if living is without you-

2011-01-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

Dear Lord,
You know my friend so much better than I do.
You know his sickness and the burden he carries.
You also know his heart.
Lord, I ask you to be with my friend now, and work in his life.
Lord, let your will be done in my friend's life.
If there is a sin that needs to be confessed and forgiven, please help him to see his needs and confess.
Lord, I pray for my friend because your words says I should pray for his healing.
I believe you hear this earnest prayer from my heart and it is powerful because of your promise.
I have faith in you to heal my friend, but I also trust in the plan you have for his life.
Lord, I don't always understand your ways.
I don't know why my friend has to suffer, but I TRUST you.
I ask that you look with mercy and grace toward my friend.
Nourish his spirit and soul in this time of suffering and comfort him with your presence.
Let my friend know your are there with him through his difficulties.
And may you be glorified in his life and also in mine.
Amen

My heart sank when he told me about it.
I really need this precious friend of mine.
I am so disheartened that I cannot do anything to help him.
Just to pray for him is all I can do.
Hope he heals in time.

2011-01-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

Almost 2 years has passed and I wonder why I still can't bring myself to accept the fact that he is gone.

2010-11-09T21:08:00.002+08:00

Praise the lord!
My grandma has been hearing ringing sounds, blurred vision, headache and she thot she had a lump in her throat.
Yesterday, she went to the doctor and the doctor claimed everything is perfectly fine.
Thank God!
I had been praying all day and night for her.
There can be miracle when you believe.
Am floating form my medication.
Am currently down with serious flu and slight fever.
Hope all goes well.
I want to go to school!
This sounds quite wrong, but I dun wish to miss any lesson.
Shall complete my work and turn in early 2dae.
God bless the unfortunate and sick ones.

2010-11-02T21:28:00.003+08:00

School life is getting tedious from all the 9am lessons.
Some even as early as 8am.
Goodness! So tired.
Guess I just need some time to adapt to the change in time table. :D

Btw, CLIQUE! In case u didnt get my fb msg ( Janice, Jenn, Xiao Qing, Denise, MP, OXY etc.)
I dunno who else wants to come along.
Our beloved Yanyue is going to visit us during the last 2 weeks of December.
Probably we'll part-ae the whole Xmas and New Year.
Please leave that week free if possible.
Will update u guys again. :)
Miss ya guys!

2010-10-08T10:35:00.003+08:00

As the year passes, one will very likely worry about how long their old, aged love ones will leave.
These days, as we bid goodbye to Mrs Lee I get worried.
How Mrs Lee is just like my grandma.
Constantly being there for us.
Teaching us the right values, showing us how independent she is.
How much she loved us can never be measured.
How she pulled through all the harsh times without anyone's help.
No matter how people treated her, she still treats them with respect and teaches us to respect them.
She was also one who would not allow us into relationship, being afraid it will affect our studies.
She was one who constantly worries for our studies and life.
There are so many grandmas in this world.
But I am proud to say, my grandma is eventually the BEST GRANDMA IN THE WORLD.
Grandma may not be the richest and she does not despise people.
And what is most important, she had imparted very important values in us.
Grandma, its a blessing to have you around us.
We thank God for sending us such a FABULOUS grandma like her.
We wish you the best of health and may you have a long life.
Although we were constantly reminded that life and death is a cycle, it is hard to accept it.
However, I've learnt to accept and help grandma live her life to the fullest.
I still hope that this day will never arrive.

2010-10-07T10:52:00.004+08:00

I am starting to miss Maths!
Come to think about it, it has almost been a year since I last touched Maths.
Forrtunately, I did not 4get most of the Maths stuff that I had learnt.
I've been "painstakingly" borrowing sis's book to do for fun.

I found a quiz and did it randomly.
1. List a few teachers who aided ur journey through school:
Ms Lee CK, Mr Tan CH, Mrs Chui HL
2.Name 3 friends who have helped you through a difficult time:
Janice, Jennica &Xiao Qing
3.Name 5 people who have taught u something worthwhile:
Grandma, Mummy, Mr Tan CH, Corrine Lai, Janice
4.Think of a few people who have made you feel special and appreciated.
Grandma, uncle, mum, sibs, Janice, Jennica, yanyue, xiao qing
5.Think of 5 people you enjoy spending time with:
Grandma, family, janice, jennica, hanani

The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that CARE.

2010-10-06T11:25:00.002+08:00

A poem mummy should read:

You brought us up all our life
Showing us wrong from right
There were times I was upset
But I know now it was good sense.
You kept us warm and kept us fed
You even checked on us when we were in bed.
There are so many mothers in this world
But I have to say you are the best one
There was time you were hard on us, I was mad
But after years went by I was glad
There's time I stop and think
How wonderful it is to have a mother so great
With all you said and did
I'm glad you didn't give up on this kid
So after this I have to say
You are a special mother up to this day.

2010-09-19T14:49:00.002+08:00

It has been a pretty long time since I last blogged.
Finally, after all the mugging and exams.
Wootz!
A time to recharge my "Battery" and prepare for school reopen.
Had long holiday.
5Weeks have passed and still have 5 more weeks.
Is this shiokness or boredness really depends on what each individual plans to do.
For me, its time to get physical.
Just did a 2Km run today.
Used to do that on a weekly basis.
And I have not done that since my exams which is weeks.
Gonna spend this Holidays wildly.
Haven't been meeting my girlfriends too.
Really miss them utterly bad.
So many things I want to do...

Complete yet another long distance jog in Macritchie.
Go swimming everyday
Get back to dance
Meet up with clique
Study before Semester starts.

How much of these things can be accomplished? We shall see.

2010-08-20T20:52:00.008+08:00

Thanks for my awesome gifts and "surprise" on my 17th Bdae. :D

Max skirt from beloved Janice. Very nice! Janice, I 4got to tell you how much I love the colour and pattern of it.

Present from lovely Jennica and she told me in the card "What is important the word on it. You're not only a friend of mine, but an important one. " Jennica just loves making me love her more.

A B'day card from Jennica.

Body mist from GAP. GAPscent they call it.

Mum and I.

Bro, mum and I.

Mum and I again.

Dad and I

Trio.

Seems like someone is trying to destroy my cake!

Thats not emo/unglam but looking on.

Not picking my nose but licking my finger. Haha. This is quite an unglam one.

Why is everyone looking away?

Fam...

I counted and there was an extra candle.

2010-08-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

Met up with ex-classmates to catch up.

Thanks guys for my gift.

And Jennica for the frolick voucher and ur lovely letter.

Janice, I can just say that the skirt is awesome!

Thanks people.

We still have lots of dates to be completed.

Go Roller Bladding, Coffee Bean, Pepper Lunch etc.

Will arrange that asap.

In the meanwhile, I have to miss u guys and cya in my dreams.

Lol.

Lots of love,

Jane

Letter from Jennica!
Max-Skirt from Janice

Gift from Jennica babe

2010-08-18T11:37:00.008+08:00

Came across my photo album while mum was packing the storeroom.
Just thought of uploading some pictures of my childhood.
Afterall, my blog is quite dead.

My loveliest cousins. I am on the extreme right.
Look who's the driver! Me (green)

Holiday in Genting. When I was 4 or 5.

Sis and I.

Cousin and I. We are of the same age.

Hey there!

Babies of 1993. 2 cousins and me. When we were 1. Me(Extreme right)

Mum and I at Dream World in Gold Coast( Australia)

Dad and I

Used to be 7 of us. Now... 13 of us. Lol.

Trying out the walker.

Wanted: Dead or alive. Dad & I in Aust.

Goodbye Koalas.

I am leaving...

Aboard the boat in Cairns

Sis and I

Look at the eyes of mine...

2010-08-14T11:21:00.002+08:00

Just came across some pictures that we took some time back.
Remember all the wonderful and sometimes rough moments we go through together.
It was a marvellous and will be a well-cherish friendship.
Hope the time never pass and we could be 2gether 4eva.
We wrote notes to each other.
Encouraged each other.
These are a bunch of wonderful people to be around.
~Love u guys~

Love these people loads...
This was real fun.

Beloved Janice and Luo Xi's Bdae. Perfect!

Remember u 2 came to my house and what did we play with?

Just can't have enough fun with them. World's most wonderful people.

2010-07-31T21:33:00.003+08:00

I am so starting to miss my years as a ballerina.

Thinking back those times when we Grand Jete and Pirouette across the dance studio.

In the past, a split was nothing to me.

But now, the many years of hard work has been wasted.

I could hardly do a split and I have not been dancing for a long long time.

Sometimes, I just feel so fustrated with myself.

Why in the first place did I even give up something that I had always longed to do.

If only I did not give up, I would be completing my ballet RAD syllabus.

I just think that maybe I should take ballet classes again.

But then again, there are a few factors to worry.

Mainly time and grade.

Which grade am I gonna start at this stage?

A 5th grader going back to 3rd grade or maybe a forth grade...

It is sometimes disappointing to think about it.

Wherever I come across pictures of ballerinas doing Grand Jete, I always admiring them.

Often forgetting that I was once a ballerina.

I hope time will allow me to once again pursue my dream as a ballerina.

Once I stopped ballet, everything just went out.

When I was young, people often warn me saying once anyone starts ballet, she cannot stop.

This is because she will encounter problem with thigh muscles, which is pretty true.

I wanna regain my ballerina figure. Gosh! This sounds so desperate.

But I guess its time to diet. If not, I should 4get about going back to ballet.

2010-07-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

This week has been a relatively busy one.

All the projects due.

We had hardly a month to complete it.

So busy, couldn't have lunch with Janice.

Janice! I MISS YA!

Gosh! Just haven't seen u for a week.

Damn! Why is it we have so many projects...

How I wish everything can be theory.

But when I really have all the theories, I think I would prefer projects.

The grass is always greener on the other side.

I guess will just have to accept whatever I have and take it as a blessing. :)

Janice, I wanted to have dinner with u last night but I just can' t get to you.

Goodness...

And its gonna be holidays soon.

This means I will see you even less often!

You always say this " Our friendship can never end" .

True it never ends.

BUT it gets better.

I dun understand why but the kind of friendship I have with you is undescribeable

We can never have enough of each other.

Although we have known each other for 3 years, I always feel as though we have known each other for a decade.

Maybe it seem like I just got to know you.
We can never get bored with each others' accompanyment.

And to my beloved girlfriends out there esp jenn and XW!

Please inform me of the date that you guys will be free.

Remember we still have another "mission" to accomplish???

We wanted to fly kite 2gether. That was like promised a few month ago.

I really miss you guys too!

2010-07-28T10:22:00.002+08:00

My blog is dying!!!
Will be back soon!

2010-07-06T23:11:00.003+08:00

Grandpa's result on the tumour is out.
And we've just received a bad news.
He has been diagnosed with stage 1 cancer.
His percentage of recovery is 80%.
Just hope that everything will be fine.

2010-07-05T18:46:00.004+08:00

Collected my family picture and I have to appologise if it looks unclear.
We bought the 4R picture each piece costing $38.
So we bought a few that we'd selected and the guys refuses to save it in a thumbdrive for us.
WTH! Why is taking a family picture in America so much cheaper than taking 1 in Singapore.
It usually costs a few hundreds in Singapore.
Afterall, its done once a few years.
So I guess, should be fine.

2010-07-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

During my secondary and primary school days, I dreaded school so much.
I was just doing my best to avoid school then.
But now, I just can't get enough of Poly life.
Just can't wait to go to school everyday.
I am always waking up, looking forward to an entirely new and exciting day ahead.
Glad to say I am enjoying school life and studies! :D

2010-07-04T13:48:00.002+08:00

Went to student's house today and I am officially $21 richer today.
Lol...
Went to Jared's house with Nani, Dennis and Sakilah.
We had real fun!
Awesome! Jared enjoyed entertaining us and we also enjoyed his entertainment.
So busy with the many projects.
Goodness gracious.
And I feel as though I am about to fall sick!
Shucks man. This feeling just sucks so badly.
So busy and recently I've been wondering why there can never be 25 hours in a day.
And why is it I can never get enough sleep.
Can't wait to collect my family photo 2mrw. :D
Stay tuned for the pictures! :)

2010-07-01T09:27:00.002+08:00

Grandpa had been having a coarse voice for the past few months.
Initially he went back to his dr. at Gleneagles whom treated his cancer.
He had a history of cancer.
That was quite a few years back.
His dr. did not notice anything only swelling in the laryxn.
This time, he went to the ENT (ear, nose and throat) specialist.
They found a tumor.
The specialist said there is a 20 -30% of the tumour being cancerous.
Hope his report for 2dae's day surgery turns out to be good.
All of us just pray and hope that everything is fine.
And we hope that it is benign.
Waiting to hear good news from the dr.

2010-06-25T14:35:00.000+08:00

Last year this time was a terribly harsh and unbelievable period.
His almost 14million or more fans together with the world mourned his passing.
And up till today, many of us have choosen to take this piece of news as a rumour.
Deciding not to believe in it.
Watching his show all again on the TV at home, really makes me feel his presence.
The energy you will never get to feel when you watch other music entertainer perform.
He is just so much alive.
His death brought the entire music industry and his fan's world to a standstill.
But he more treasured and famous now that he is dead.
When he was alive, people often say he is a paedophile and they choose to believe in the media.
But the moment he died, they claimed that they are true fans of his.
I am glad I was given a chance to grow up with his music. All the No.1 Hits.
How cool is that?
How many of today's music entertainer can be as successful as him?
Sad to say, up till today, nobody can replace him.
He taught me to face life with courage.
Despite all the law cases he had to go through, the critics from people, he was and is still so successful.
Although he is dead, his music will still live in us.
Although he did not make it for his big comeback, THIS IS IT concert, he still made a comeback and this is probably more than what he expected.
The sad thing is that, he is not here to witness it.
~RIP MJ~

2010-06-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long time.
This week has been a tedious and tiring week.
So packed with common tests and revision.
2dae spells the end of common test and the start of HOLIDAYS!!!
Woots!
2dae's paper was suppose to start at 12noon.
N I only woke up at 11 am.
Guess what?
I jumped out of bed and ran around like a crazy women.
Then flagged a cab to school.
Cost me $10.40.
Wad a joke! :D
Will be back to blog!

2010-06-02T19:55:00.003+08:00

As life passes, we have more choices to make.
We have to decide on what's right and what's wrong.
But often, although people know that is the wrong path, they still decide to take that path.
They only come to senses when one falls deeply.
He is no longer able to be the usual strong him.
I hope he can pick himself from where he fell and go against the current.
God Bless him.

2010-05-16T13:25:00.003+08:00

I am so annoyed, furious and fustrated .

I guess its the lack of trust and biasness that created this gap between us.

I will often ask myself and realise, maybe this is what I ought to deserve.

If u have to be bias, yes I understand.

As to whether or not u are bias, u should know it urself.

I just have to be strong and hold on.

Not letting u see a single tear that streams down.

It is very obvious who u are in favour of.

But I don't wish to be an idiot watching u guys put up a show.

I guess I just have to learn how to be independent.

On many occasion, u claim that u are not showing any favouritism but I guess u will know it urself.

Just as you thought the world is crumbling down, ur best friends will stand by you.

2010-05-15T15:24:00.002+08:00

Went out with Dennis, Jared and Nani for dinner.
Had dinner at AMK Hub Pepper lunch.
Enjoyed dinner.
Thanks guys! :)

2010-05-14T10:27:00.002+08:00

LIFE IN POLY IS RELAXED?
Think about it again...
Everything moves so quickly.
Just by not attending class for 2 days, u will be way way behind the class.
Everyday travelling for almost 2 hours.
Waking up early in the morning and YES! going to bed only in the next morning.
How cool is that?
But I guess for the time being, we should just learn to live with that.

Thanks Janice, for ur continous encouragement.
Everyday, I LOOK 4ward to lunch.
Cuz I can see u!!!

2010-05-11T21:36:00.003+08:00

I hate people who Bit*h face.
These bit*hes ought to look at themselves in the mirror.
They try to seek attention in class.
Flirting with guys and get touchy with them.
These people are super irritating.
These are back-stabbers.
Now they can smile and talk to u like very good friends.
After that, they will back stab u and talk bad about you.
I am glad I didn't choose the wrong friends.
And I am glad that I did not choose to be with these people in the first place.
N guess what?
They don't even know that more than HALF the class hates them!
This is going to be a joke with Cassandra, Tess and gang in our class.

2010-05-07T11:38:00.002+08:00

Life is Poly is just as stressful.
Test on every Friday.
Projects after projects.
Have to come to school early in the morning and go home only at night.
This is killing me!
So many things to do.
We are like running after time.
I hope it will stop for us.
But time waits for no man.
Getting lesser sleep and just more work coming along.
Will post more when time allows me to. :)

2010-05-01T14:10:00.003+08:00

It's fustrating for me whenever I fall sick.
I just fell super screwed up.
I was sick on Monday night.
Went t0 the dr on Tuesday. Got MC on Tues and Wed.
But I went back to school not even recovered at all on Wed.
Main reason, a lot of lectures and I dun wish to miss lesson.
Again, Yesterday.
I went to school and I felt terrible.
Thank got I've got caring friends like Janice, nani and sakilah.
These people really took care of me.
Went back halfway thru class.
I dunno what is wrong with my immune system.
According to mum, she says its stress.
I guess I just need to start taking more Vit pills.
Just feel super lost missing so many lectures.
Gotta really brush up on my work.
Didn't think Poly could be so stressful.
Even when I was having O levels, I din't feel so sick.
Gonna meet project clique to complete project 2mrw.
N am like going out at 7pm.
But am glad daddy no longer sees me as his "little girl".
He used to want me home before 6 kind.
People have been telling me its not that he doesn't trust me but just that he is concern about my safety and afraid I get cheated.
Rather Lol.

Janice! This post is for you.
Thanks for taking care of me and showing me your concern for the pass few days.
Thanks for buying me lunch when I felt terrible.
Just like to let you know that you had and will always be my GREATEST FRIEND.
You were always my shoulder to cry on and a friend to rely on.
Not all friends stand by you through your joys and sorrows.
But you have been there for me always!
You are a friend who is like a blessing in my life! :D

2010-04-23T15:26:00.002+08:00

So bored! In school and suppose to have lectures and god knows where the lecturer went.
Lecture and tutorial for 2 hrs.
So maybe that may mean that we can have our own free time for the next 2hrs.
Haha.
Waiting to go for dinner with Janice!
Had been having lunch with Janice for the pass few days. :)
Thank God for allowing me to be in the same school as Janice. :D
And I was so glad to see Jing Wen around campus.
Some people say that polys are very big, thus it is very difficult to see each other.
But I don't believe in that.
I've seen Nina, Jing Wen and have been meeting Janice so frequently.
Will blog again soon!

2010-04-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

Had lunch with Janice sis today.
Fortunnately, had tutorial in the same block as her.
If not, I m gonna lost my way.
Ngee Ann is just so huge!
Looking forward to spending more time with precious her.

2010-04-20T20:58:00.003+08:00

Feel so vexed!
So stressed up!
Just pray to God to give us strength and watch over him.

2010-04-18T21:26:00.007+08:00

Me and my beloved grandma! Love her loads! :D
Sis and I

Dad and us!

Cousins and I

That's mum lifting me!

Sweetheartie Bro and I

Mum and Bro

Bro and I (Leaning tower of pisa)

Look at grandma eating Ice Cream! Haha. She's just the best grandma u can ever imagine! God bless her! :D

Us with our AWESOME Grandma.

Us with mummy :)

Us with the bestest cousin!

Group Picture!

Egypt

riding the camel

Do they look alike?

Family

Foursome!

Sleeping beauties.

Up in the sky.

2010-04-18T16:12:00.003+08:00

Its the end of the O level vacation.
I can just say that time passes so quickly.
Before you know, there goes a day, a week, a month, a year and then a decade.
Time is always oppossing us.
Sometimes when we need more time, time just seems to pass so quickly.
But when you need it to pass quickly, it just seems that the clock had been still for the past few minutes.
Eagerly waiting for school to start 2mrw.
Gonna start with an entirely new life.
Hope everything goes well for all of us.
Poly life is so different from School.
U go to school late and there is a lot of freedom.
Just gotta keep working hard!
~Loves!~

2010-04-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

School is starting soon!
And I am proud to say that I am eagerly waiting for school to start.
So looking forward to starting class with 1B01! :D
Looks like its gonna be an awesome class!
So excited to study again.
Has been a long time since I last studied.
Maybe sometimes, we just need some time to realise that "Its actually time to wake up!"
And yes, I am gonna study hard and do my best for every semester.
Although it may be late to regret, but at least this is what I believe, my awakening point.
At least I wake up rather than be asleep for the rest of my life.
I oso like to wish my friends all the best of luck as all of us embark on an entirely new journey.
And I thank those friends who made me feel at home during Orientation.
Thank God for letting me meet these people.
-Life begins here-

2010-04-06T15:21:00.004+08:00

My blog is officially dead.
So thought of uploading a few random pics.

2010-03-24T10:18:00.002+08:00

Been to China for the past 5 days.
Trip was awesome except for, many of us caught the stomach flu there.
The water seems clean, but in actual fact, it may be contaminated.
Everyday, food is the same small prawns, fish, eggs, soup and all.
And the soup tastes blend.
But it was a wonderful experience.
The scenery was beautiful but the toilets are utterly disgusting!
The toilets anywhere in China are the same.
Before you even enter the toilet, you can just smell this overwhelming smell.
And to my dear readers who may think of going to China, be careful cause our tour guide actually brought us to places where they sell medicines and crystals where the people will actually cheat you.
We actually went to this place selling crystal and guess what?
We were very clear about the tactics that the person was going to use.
So before he tricked us, we tricked him!
That guy should feel such a loser! :)
Here is what happens.

We got off the tour bus and urgently needed the toilet but there was a queue.
So those China people selling crystal jade told us to get into this "VIP Lounge".
We keep insisting that we wanted the toilet but they still forced us in.
All of us got irritated and showed the so-called Manager face when he got in.

Manager: Hi, this Jade is (blah blah blah)
We: Some pretend to appear sleepy, some just staring at him.
-Craps about his boss and that his lady boss had just given birth to a baby boy and that his boss gave them 1000RMB red packet. (Bullshit cause not 1 but many have heard of the same story )-
Manager: Where are all of u from?
We: Hong Kong (Laughs)
Manager: Which part of Hong Kong?
We: Kowloon
Manager: Aren't u guys with the other group from Singapore?
We: (Just can't stop laughing at his stupid face)
Manager: Blushes
He then went to get the boss's name card and guess what, we threw the name card back on the table. Lol.
The "Manager" was pretty angry he stopped and led us into another room where more jades are placed.
Then everyone were like can I look at this, can I look at that.
In the end everyone don't want it.
The Manager got so pissed he stormed out off the room!

Sometimes, I wonder why they keep using the same tactics over and over again.
Maybe they think we are just as dumb.
But we've proven them wrong. :)

2010-03-11T11:03:00.002+08:00

Haven't been posting recently.
Been busy for the pass few days.
Recently, an incident struck me hard.
What happens after a person departs from mother earth?
Although this person departs, how much have she left for the people around her.
How deeply has she impacted their lives?
This questions ran through my mind.
And to a conclusion, we ought to live our lives like no 2mrw.
My prayers goes out to her family members.
May God guide her as she embarks on what I believe, a new journey.

2010-03-02T10:35:00.002+08:00

Got my POSB card! :D

2010-02-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

2dae is just a long long day.
And a day filled with lots of fun with clique.
Met XQ in the morning and we headed to Taka to get Jenn's present.
Then back to old school.
Had award presentation and all.
The whole thingy only ended at 8.
Went hub with the rest for fun.
Hope we can meet up real soon! :D

2010-02-23T22:07:00.008+08:00

Some people are damn irritating cuz u noe what?

This person like enjoys following you around and wants to stick to you but when it comes to things like that, this person will just like treat u like this.
This person better noe, if anything were to go wrong, this person is gonna be accounted for.
I think for this person's Bdae I will get a mirror.
I doubt this person has seen ITSELF in the mirror!
Look at yourself in the mirror before talking about someone else especially when u are not that fit to comment about people.
Please do something about urself and make sure u are fit to say that about someone b4 u actually like make a fool out of urself.
Let me tell you this frankly, think about what you've said and I think whatever u've said suit urself more.
Let me tell this person.
If u really think u can live up to what u've said, then stop being like wad xq said a KPO and get a life!
Stop sticking on to me cuz u're just a freaking pain in my ass!
I've gotta say that cuz thatz how much this person irritates and annoys me at the sight of IT!
People, its not a typo! I mean "IT".
Cuz this person is an inhuman in our eyes.
N if this mysterious person should find us irritating, stay away from us!

2010-02-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

I am super fustrated and vexed.
Somehow, somewhere around everyone there are just people who are plain bias!
These people just make me feel so annoyed and disgusted.
Often, these people dun mean what they say.
I really dun understand it.
But sometimes, its just something I must learn to accept.
Afterall, its fated.
So to that person, PLEASE DO NOT ACT IN FRONT OF ME.
If u can't accept who I am, then too bad!
But I have to tell u, I M OSO UNABLE TO ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE!

2010-02-16T20:04:00.002+08:00

This year's Chinese New Year was a rather boring one.
Day 1 was day at maternal grandma's then went airport for lunch.
Day 2, cousins, aunts and uncles came over to my house.
Had prata for dinner! :D
Today went Esplanade.
Took the river cruise then went to Uncle Ringo's fun fair...
The rides are so expensive.
Like the cheapest is like $7.50.
Diao... I rather spend the money on other things.
The weather was so super killing.
Got tanned by walking by the Singapore River.
Imagine that! :(
Went taka after that to find Xq and Jenn.
Xq was so surprise.
Pretended to be a customer and when she was folding clothes, I pulled it.
She almost scolded me cuz she thought was some customers... lol... :D
Mum bought me a magnet necklace cause my back has been a problem.
The magnetic necklace is suppose to help ease my back problem cause it helps align the blood vessels and also for better sleep.
I got it at a very good price cause they are having a promotion.
Used to be $55. :D
Thanks mum...

2010-02-12T10:47:00.002+08:00

Damn pissed!
Pissed by some irritating people.
Pissed with the annoying attitude.

2010-02-07T18:33:00.001+08:00

They can say,

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I will not allow anyone to succeed

hanging clouds over me,

And they can try

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all,

But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams'

Cause there's,

There's a light in me,

That shines brightly,

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

From me

No no nooo

Oh they,

They can do

Anything they want to you,

If you let them in,

But they won't ever win,

If you cling to you pride,

and just push them aside,

See I..

I have learned,

There's an inner peace I own,

Something in my soul that they can not possess

So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me

That shines brightly,

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

No oh oh,

They can't take this

Precious love I'll always have inside me,

Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

Woah, woah

They can say

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I won't face the ground,

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,

Oh, Lord,

they do try,

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to falter

In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,

'Cause there's a light in me,

That shines brightly

They can try but they can't take that away from

From me

No no nooo

2010-02-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

Janice, thanks for staying through it with me.
As long as there is faith, I believe there is hope.
If he really must leave, we've done our best.
If he's gonna survive this, its a miracle...
Been so busy...
Will be back soon!

2010-01-31T21:07:00.004+08:00

Just thought of posting something unusual...
History! :D Lol...

Black and white... Thatz me! :D That's in Australia

Phuket

One of the ballet performance. Try spotting me... Actually the middle one (tallest)

Still in the center... Thatz my split in the air... :)

In the centre... Love this pic...

Miss those times

no longer in the centre. 2nd from the left (on the floor).

2010-01-24T15:55:00.001+08:00

More pics on facebook! :D

2010-01-24T14:53:00.004+08:00

2010-01-19T23:01:00.002+08:00

I don't really understand what is going on but I seriously feel super pissed.
Just thinking about it, sometimes I feel life maybe rather unfair.
The unexpected often happens to the most innocent little ones.
Yet the ones creating the most havoc doesn't depart from this world.
There are many things just to much to be mentioned to be unhappy about.
What's the point of being unfair?
Afterall, both of us are standing on par.
So what is gonna happen now that you are seeing her as a better person than me?
There are really somethings that I dun really understand.
Wth is wrong with you?
Gonna forget everything. Cause just thinking about it makes me feel vexed, fustrated and annoyed.
I've tried to see it lightly but I guess you are going way too far.

2010-01-11T12:54:00.001+08:00

Went to Mount Elizabeth with mum for check-up.
Then met dad at paragon for breakfast.
Initially, thought there was this Delifrance at Paragon.
But I think its gone.
So dad suggested to go to Din Tai Fung.
Delicious food and good service but rather costly.
1 plate of fried rice costs $10.
N to say, some people are so freaking rich they are even willing to spend more than $200K on a Cartier or Rolex watch.
I believe as long as you noe the time, any normal watch will do...
Wonder how these people earn money.
Actually the branded stuff are more of the normal brand nowsadays.
Its no longer unique.
I wonder how do we define rich?
By having all the branded stuffs.
Or a person with a lot of brains and a good character?
I think nowsadays, people define rich thru ones dressing.
From the clothes to bags to shoes to sunglasses.
All have to be branded.
But this is the environment and society that they grew up in.

2010-01-10T17:52:00.002+08:00

Had a terrible nightmare.
Fortunately, I woke up and found it a dream.
I just pray to God and hope that it will not repeat itself 2mrw.
People have been telling me that I am thinking too much about my results.
Maybe I just have not learn to look on the brighter sight.
God bless all taking results 2mrw.
All the best! :D

2010-01-09T15:36:00.002+08:00

Ok... I am so freaking freaked out by the news about the release of results.
I've really got no idea how am I gonna do.
But I m prepared for the worst.
Everyone is so supportive of me and that just makes me super stress!
Mum and dad said just let things be natural.
Whatever the results, I'll have to face the fact.
Grandparents are telling me, don't worry, if you only manage to scrape through this obstacle, try harder for the next one.
But I think my results will be more of a disappointment than something that I ought to be proud of.
But I am going to have to face it.
Just like to thank my family members and friends who supported me through the O level period.
I just feel anxious about getting my results... :D
God bless everyone getting results.

2010-01-09T15:12:00.003+08:00

Things change and people change too...
But when these things change, the people will change drastically.
And the worst thing is this person changes without knowing how deep and how badly it hurts.
True, one of my besties told me that ____ should jolly well know went thru the most with ___.
Whatever it is, God will decide how long more our _____ship will last.
If it ends, its seriously for good.
I just am not sure if this ____ship should continue.
There are many things that people won't know.
They only know things on the surface.
However, they don't really know the problem that lies within it.
And there is only 1 particular person who knows about this.
I just don't know what to say about this person but just disappointed is all I can say.

2010-01-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

Went out with cousin's fam and fam yesterday for dinner.
Went for Seafood!
Whao! Enjoyed the dinner...
Uncle treated us to abalone, lobster and crab.
Had rice mixed with lobster soup.
Something special... :D
Thanks a lot uncle! =D
God bless them!

2010-01-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

This is my first post of 2010!
Wishing everyone a belated Happy New Year.
Been so occupied.
Went countdown with cousins and parents.
That's always the case...
My cousins are basically cousins who will go thru everything together with me. :D
Thru my fears, sorrows and worries.
I just love my cousins so much! =D
I just dunno what to say about my cousin but they are just the best cousins you will ever have.
Then had burgerking!
Wohoo!~ Whooperlicious.
2009 had been a year filled with stress and troubles.
But together with clique, we managed to overcome all these problems.
I just hope that 2010 is gonna be a smooth and pleasant year.

2009-12-26T17:24:00.001+08:00

2009-12-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

Celebrated early X'mas with clique the day before christmas eve.
Had a great time...
Haven't seen them for a long long time.
On the eve of X'mas, celebrated X'mas at cousie's house.
Had pizzas and lots of food.
Cousin bought this E33 beer.
N I should say, she is solid.
She finished I guess like more than half the bottle and I took only 2 mouthfuls.
And no! She didn't get drunk.=D.
Afterall, this years' christmas is yet another fun and amazing one.
Thanks cousies... :)

2009-12-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

M gonna be busy.
Grandma has been hospitalised.
She was having flu and she took her medicine.
I visited her like minutes ago.
Just as I reached home, grandma's cousin called and said she fainted...
Gosh! Terrible shock.
Fortunately uncle reached home on time and called for the ambulance.
Visited grandma and stayed by her side for the whole of today.
Lots of thanks to xq and janice for their prayers and concern.
Wadever it is, just pray and hope that she has a speedy recovery.
All I can think of now is for grandma to have a speedy recovery.
~May God bless her~

2009-12-15T18:00:00.003+08:00

Went somerset 313 to shop with mum.
Its a new shopping centre and so yes! the things were priced as expected.
Some what I call "Orchard price".
Then headed to marina square.
Bought many many presents for cousins.
I walked into precious thoughts and I saw carousel, ice skating rims and ferris wheel.
Not the real one but just some toy.
N I promise... When I've got that money, I m so gonna decorate my house with it.
Its just something like a childhood thing.
I just feel very calm looking at it.
I stood there staring at it for a pretty long time b4 turning away.
Just want my house to be filled with that in future.
Has been a long time since I've played with these things.

2009-12-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long time.
Went for job interview with cousin and friends yesterday.
But the woman told us she'll call us again cause she has to send the details to her client.
Was a great experience. :D
First time interviewing for job.
I m half into the job...
There are pros and cons. :(
Will blog again. :D

2009-12-09T00:09:00.003+08:00

2009-12-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today, went out with fam...
Brought bro to Fidgets @ turf city, yet another indoor playground.
After that, went to Bukit Timah Hill...
Gosh! That was terrible!
The hill is like so super steep and dangerous!
Then, went for dinner, to the library then homed!
Super tired... :D

2009-12-06T23:46:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night, went to Changi Airport for supper.
Yes, that's what we always do...
Go for SUPPER!
Perhaps that explains my size... :)
But its like once in a while.
Had popeye's chicken.
~Wohoo~
D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!
But after that was super thirsty.
Walked around and took pictures and finally left at 12.30am.
Reached home at about 1am.
Yes, we are the "midnighters".
Somehow we are nocturnal "animals".

I was midway into falling to my slumberland at about 2am, my phone rang.
Gave me a shock...
I thought "what or who could it be? is it an emergency?"
Then I saw "June(my cousie)''
Look at the funny conversation below.

Me: hello... (sleepily)
She: Hello! (still so energetic!)
Me: What?
She: Eh... u can sleep?(giggles) My bro and I can't sleep... Our stomachs are too bloated. We're very thirsty. Kept drinking lots of water.
Me: Dotz... U call me just to tell me that?
She: Yea. U sleeping alr?
Me: yea... >_<
She: Ok... Good nite!
Me: Diao! Bye...

this is damn retarded, but sometimes having her as my cousin is a blessing. She is a real joker! :D
Will upload pictures some other day

2009-12-05T23:35:00.001+08:00

Today, went for Ben 10 show with bro and cousie. The tickets aren't cheap costing $83 each. Aunt and I were talking about how fortunate kids are nowsadays. After that, went Polliwog's, an indoor playground @ East Coast for bro and cousie to play. Guess bro did enjoy the fun. He fell asleep on the way home... :D

2009-12-03T13:33:00.002+08:00

I finally grew up and understand.
I m no longer that childish thinking gal.
Now I c.
He and only him.
He's impotant in the life of u guys.
Whatever he do is always rite.
His wrongdoings had never been a mistake in ur lifes!
If this is it, then why bother about bringing me and her this far?
I believe it was a forceful decision and not what u think u will be ready 4.
I swear! U shouldn't even bother bringing us here, where we are today.
Cause u only make our life suck like no tomorrow.
N when was the last time I shared my sorrows with u?
I believe never in my life did I tell u guys and let u noe what I went thru and how much I hate it!
Whatever it is, someone told me, its what we should say "FATE".
Yes, now he is truly inportant to u guys.
So u guys can put us aside.
Get that clear!
It has never been a time when I see this so seriously.
I just dun understand why.
But sometimes, leaving will be the best option!
Only idiots like you will make idiotic and crappy comments.
So I just wanna let u noe, I will never be so concerned or rather take ur comments to heart.
Cuz I dun wanna waste my life on such IDiots!
I've changed my point of view towards u.
I never had to live on u, u noe...
I just think one day, u will not be able to find me.
N that is when u ought to reflect on whatever u have done.
MOOD:PISSED!!!!

2009-12-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

M super duper happy with this piece of good news.
And it is that MJ's This Is It DVD is gonna be released in January...
M so gonna get it! :D

2009-11-30T11:37:00.003+08:00

I am so waiting for Christmas to arrive!
M so gonna celebrate Christmas this year...
Although I m neither a christian nor catholic, I believe Christmas is a celebration of love.
N I m so gonna have pizzas, ham and PARTY! :)
Going out with mummy and sib.
So excited to see a "new home".
My com table and book shelves coming in later in the afternoon.
So poor daddy has to stay at home to receive the things.
Lurve him loads...

2009-11-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a many moons.
M too tired...
Just wanna sleep more.
But can't be helped.
Gotta force myself out of bed and go for morning jogs.
Ran about 1.2km.
Nice one...
Gotta train muscles.
Came home. No rest.
Mop the floor, spin the clothes, iron the clothes.
Whao!
That's life without maid.
N this is the first time in my life... I m ironing clothes for my entire family.
N guess wad?
I was clumsy enuff to burn my finger with the iron.
Was super funny.
When the iron touched my finger, I got a shock out of my life.
Almost fainted.
So I screamed!
N my sis who was about to fall asleep got up and said "I thought u were watching MJ."
Lol...
Can't wait for Sunday to see javen and joven. :D
M so eager...
~Off to sleep~

2009-11-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

2009-11-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

I am thankful to god for answering my prayers.
I just kept praying for him to be safe and have a speedy recovery.
Yet, today a miracle happened.
Granduncle seems to have improvement in his health.
He has been transferred from the immediate care unit to the normal ward.
Yes, its immediate and not intensive.
Thanks to xq and janice for praying together with me.
Without their prayers, I doubt granduncle will pull through.
Nevertheless, I have to continue praying and hope that his condition continue to improve.
Even if he may not be like the normal him, we are thankful that he is able to come this far.
May god continue to bless him with a speedy recovery.
Janice told me have faith in him and god will do the rest.
Its amazing. I just hope we can receive better news 2mrw.
There can be miracles when you believe.
And I believe that he is strong enough to pull through this.
~God Bless~

2009-11-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

Daddy and mummy are buying lots of new things.
We're gonna have a new book shelf and a new com table.
Then recently, we bought a new study table and chairs.
Soon, new bed.
Daddy wants me to change my fone since contract has been due for a long long time.
Went united square with parents just now to get Bro's school bag from SPI.
Then headed down to J8 for dinner and then shopped there with mum.
And now, I m super duper tired.
Havent been running for quite some time.
Gotta start 2mrw.
Hopefully it doesn't rain in the morning.

2009-11-22T20:15:00.002+08:00

Granduncle had been admitted to the hospital for almost a week when he suffered from a heart attack.
Everyday without fail, cousie and I will accompany grandparents to visit him.
I just saw him doing well.
He could get off the bed, walk and even talk to us and laughed like the normal him.
But unfortunately, the next day he could not talk and drs claim he has stroke.
Things got worst and yesterday, doctors said his brain was bleeding.
When the doctors told us he may depart within this 2 days, I prayed to God to watch over my granduncle.
To bless him with a speedy recovery.
To let him be with us.
I went to visit him again yesterday.
I just can't help but fight back my tears when I saw him.
I saw in front of my eyes, how a strong and cheerful man crumbled to a frail and weak man.
The pipes on his bodies, his bony legs made my heart ached.
I could not accept the fact that there will actually come a day when I will see him lying on the bed like who he is today.
Its heart-wrenching to see him suffer.
No one leaves the room with a dry eye.
Stayed at the hospital for 4 hours with grandparents.
Every now and then I prayed and asked God to watch over him.
Until now, when I recall what I saw of him yesterday, tears can just flow.
It was just days ago, I saw him and he spoke to me.
Then today, he is lying there on the hospital bed.
Although he may not be someone I am very close with, it just pains my heart.
Its natural.
Fortunately, there seems to be a slight inprovement in his health today.
May God continue to protect him and bless him with a speedy recovery.
Not forgetting to thank Xq and Janice for reminding me to take care of myself and for praying together with me.
I just hope that his health will continue to improve over the days.
I believe he will pull through.
May God Bless him and his family.

2009-11-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

My cam is lyk going crazy.
It is starting to give me problem.
I dunno waz wrong with it.
Gotta get dad to send it for repair.
Btw, yesterday had prom.
Gosh! Its just so fun.
Took loads of pic.
Janice and I dedicated a song to Xq. :D
Initially, we wanted to make her cry but she came up with some reason as to y she didn't cry. :) Lol...
Gonna blog again...
~Stay Tuned!~

2009-11-15T21:08:00.014+08:00

2009-11-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

Today is my last lesson with tutor.
It has been a long journey that she accompanied me on.
8 long years... Almost 9.
N its my last lesson!

Me:Whao! So fast, I going to grow older alr. I've seen u 4 8 years. U seen me grow from a little girl to a teenager.
She: Stop nagging will u! U're very pessimistic about ur life huh...
Me:Of cuz... If the world ends in 2012, might as well dun study now huh.
She: HUH! Duh! If it doesn't end how? I think u've studied too much. :D

I looked to you when I had troubles.
I remembered not doing well for Prelims and u told me, "There's no use crying over spilt milk. Move on! Work harder."
Those times when tears streamed down my cheeks, u were there guiding me through my problems.
Instilling me with the right values.
To respect people around me.
U were the one I turned to during my rebellious period.
U talked to me like how my parents did.
But it seems urs is more effective.
If not for you, I will not be who I am today.
U thought my sis and I to love each other.
And yes, today, here we are, loving each other so much...
We used to be "enemies" but u changed both of us.
U though us what love was.
Without ur guidiance, I think I will be with some hooligans.
I will not be an independent gal without ur help.

As my role model you inspire me
To dream and to work and to reach.
You help me fulfill my potential;
I'm thankful for all that you've done.
And I just want to say,
As a tutor, you're number one!

I m thankful to God for allowing me to meet u.
U shared my happiness and sorrows.
U lend me a shoulder to cry on.
~God Bless~

2009-11-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

Went for This Is It with cousins yesterday.
He's just as awesome as he is.
He doesn't look like a 50 year old man, who was dying soon.
He was so energetic.
His dance steps and vocals were amazing.
From the movie, I could really see that he was a nice, kind and loving man.
Just an adorable and loving man.
There is no one who could be as awesome as he is.
When do u ever a star eating lollipop?
I saw MJ eating lollipop.
N he was just so adorable...
Glad to see that This Is It is like coming in 1st in most of the country's box office...
May God watch over and bless him! =D

2009-11-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

I missed and am missing those Grand Jete that I used to do in ballet classes.
Those pain that we endured in order to put us in where we are now.
Those splits and physical training that almost killed us.
Its amazing time passes so quickly.
Congrats to Alicia for managing to pull through to the 8th grade...
As for me, I stopped as soon as PSLE ended.
I am starting to regret for not continuing.
Its not easy to grab something up when u've let go of it for a long period of time.
A forth grader, yet I made the silliest choice, to stop ballet lessons.
I've devoted half of my childhood to ballet.
How was it possible? To stop classes?
Almost a fifth grader, but it seems that I've gotta start from forth grade.
Maybe its time to work hard. :D
Can't wait to meet guys and prathi next week...
Had been a long time since we last saw each other.

2009-11-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

Life is fragile.
I guess its human nature.
We will only learn to appreciate the person when he/she is no longer with us.
At this point of time only then will we notice how important the person is in playing a part in our life.
Its just a cycle that every individual has to encounter.
Its just a matter of time.

There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire is burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the way
To stand for every dream
And forsake this solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you
'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams
I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no they can't take that away from me
And they will see...
I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to youI know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger,
babyI'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Can't you hear my call
I surrender all
I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to youI know you can feel it too
We'll make it through
A thousand dreams
I still believeI'll make you give them all to me
I'll hold you in my arms and never let goI surrender
Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything, I surrender all to you
Right nowI give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything, I surrender all to you

2009-11-07T18:31:00.007+08:00

I have yet to recover from the tremendous loss of mine.
May the Lord watch over him and guide me through this painful time.
Please light up my path ...
I am in total darkness.
I just can't stop myself from thinking about it.
I just can't get over my loss of him.
Somehow, the heart-wrenching memory doesn't fade away when its suppose to.
I am letting go but the memory is etched in my mind.
I've just got no idea how to let it go.
I am running low on faith.
I need his strength.
I am just so exhausted and fustrated from walking this road without him.
I just feel that I am gonna break down any time.
But a voice keeps telling me "Hold on, u can't give up at this point of time."
At that very moment, I just prayed to Lord for him to be safe by his side.
If only there is a wish that could be granted, I want him back with us.
Inspiring us like he's always done.
The lord has called for him to be back to inspire him like what he had done.
~RIP~

2009-11-06T21:23:00.003+08:00

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I need you to light up the path, guide me through this and watch me through it
I am gonna make a change
But where do I start?
I am confussed, loss, depressed
Whenever she reminds me of it, tears just well up in my eyes
It was painful and a sad one
I need your strength
I can't go on any longer
Thinking of the scary, horrendous and monsterous him.
Thinking of the painful past he left me with
I always prayed to lord and hoped that I was somewhere else.
Nowhere else other than by Lord's side
The sight of him makes me feel like regurgitating
I just dun have any idea how I can describe him.

2009-11-06T21:07:00.005+08:00

The one and only angel

2009-11-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for Tuesday!
Can't wait 2 watch THIS IS IT with cousins...
Hope they release this is it on VCD or DVD...
I am so gonna grab it if they do release it in a cd.
I m so missing MJ!
Just finished watching the CD that mummy bought.
It seems that I won't get enough of him.
M watching it 4 the 6th time.
Just watched carrie underwood performing I'll stand by you to a group of Africa children who are down with Aids.

2009-11-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

2009-11-05T20:23:00.002+08:00

Haven't been running for 2 weeks...
Gotta start again 2mrw.
Daddy's gonna bring us hiking on Monday.
I hope it doesn't rain.
M so looking forward to it.
More adventurous outings planned by daddy.
Will be going to the bukit timah nature reserve and macritchie.
Daddy is a super adventurous guy so I think we are gonna turn out to be like him.
The last time daddy brought us to pulau ubin and it was scary.
The place is like super run down.
Dad hired a mini bus there and it took us around.
But I think I will never return there.

2009-11-05T18:56:00.002+08:00

This is a super late post of my birthday gift from clique.

Its a huge board with loads of pictures and birthday notes... :D

This is just the front of the board.

Loads if unglam pictures. :)

Guess who is this?

2009-11-04T22:39:00.006+08:00

Just some pictures of brother's graduation day.

2009-11-04T12:54:00.003+08:00

Finally! A short break before starting my engines again.
Ok... This year's papers are killers!

I've got so many people to thank... Gosh.

Maternal Grandma, thank you for nagging at me and asking me to study. Grandma told me "please don't make me faint with your results." Hahax... Grandma is the best joker. She distant herself from me cuz she knew that I would not study when I see her. As in I will get very close to her and stick with her everywhere she went. I can't imagine life without my marvellous grandma. N grandma, I just wanna say, u are the best grandma ever. No words in the dictionary can describe u. Excellent is only half of wad u r. U r far better than that. I love u grandma! :) I always tell u that. But there's one thing I have yet to tell u. That is U are 4ever the first person in my heart. Deep deep in my heart... No one can replace u in my heart... When I was young I thought that if only I were a man, I would marry u. Lol... :D I want to tell u that I love you so much and I wouldn't noe wad 2 do without u. May u stay healthy grandma! I want to spent more time with you! :D

Paternal grandma for constantly worrying that I will starve...

Paternal Grandpa. His main worry about me is "Do u have enough money?" "exams coming muz study hard, a lot of people are jobless!" Thanks grandpa.

Sis, OmG! U really freak me out with the way u study. Perhaps that explain why u are an 8 pointer huh... Jia You! keep up the good work. :) Thanks 4 taking care of me during my O level period and study break. Another person who always tells me "Stop dreaming! Do your work. " Hahax... Thatz how wonderful my sis is.

Daddy for buying me bird's nest and mummy for those short but sweet messages.
Mummy told me "No matter what the results are, u will still be our best daughter."
That stressed me more but at least mummy shows me support.

Miss lai(tutor), for spending those nights studying at mac with priscilla and I. Those nights when we studied from 10pm to 6am. And then u escort me home. N when u fetched us to ur house n u ordered pizza. U will soon becoming my godma. :D Such nice tutor u r. Often telling me, ''bare in mind! no matter what the results are, its not the end of the world. I have confidence in u and so u must have confidence in urself too."

Xiaoqing, janice, jenn and mei ping. On the verge of giving up... . I still rmb what u told me. Wadz done is done. Pray to lord and get strength from him. Encouraging me to push on. N walking thru this holding my hands. Telling me "if u need a break, we'll be there". N xiong wei for being the super lame gal, who never fails to light up my face with ur lame jokes. I love you guys!

A great big thank you to God for giving me such a blessed and wonderful life. I've got so many people who love me and care about me. So many people who shower their love on me. People who are just so fantastic I dunno where in my heart should I place them. All of them seems to be competing for the first place. So competitive! But my grandma still remains. She will be 1st in my hearts forever. The rest will fall in the second place. :D May god watch over all these brilliant people in my life. Life can't go on without any1 of them...

2009-10-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

Thats bro!
Looking good!

2009-10-03T00:16:00.004+08:00

That's how close we are!
Dancers...

The Tan Family

Christie and I

Luo Xi, janice, ms lee, jenn and I

The Pyramid...

Mummy, daddy, little bro and sis

Maid & I at the airport. Sent her off.

Cousin and I. We woke up at 4am. That explains our look. :D

Cousin and Bro

Cousin, sis, maid and mum

Daddy, bro,cousin,sis

Stoning...

Left to right: Little Bro, daddy and mummy

2009-10-02T22:46:00.004+08:00

Had Graduation night today. Started at 5.30 and ended at like 7.
Which was super early!
Today is basically a day filled with joy, tears and laughters.
So many funny things happened.
N oso the videos which the teachers did were extremely touching.
Graduation Night is what I can say AWESOME! :D
Went to school and guess what?
Xq fell while boarding the bus.
She tripped and the bus driver was like controlling his laughter.
Then when we met at the bus stop, we played xiao qing out.
She walked down the slope whereas xiong, jenn, janice and I went down by the staircase and Xq was like walking all alone and she did not notice...
(Janice, pls post the video)
Then comes a funny funny time... Xq, jenn and xiong were like going crazy on the way to school.
They were singing and dancing. Superb funny! :D
Then came graduation night...
Mr Lew touch our hearts with a sentence that says "YOUR PARENTS LOVE YOU AND SO DOES YOUR TEACHER! So work hard and make them proud".
This really hit me hard in the head...
Thanks Mr lew! I have finally woken up and m currently motivated.
Mummy and Daddy, I love you too :)
N I believe you guys will know it too.
That is something I have been telling you guys like so often since like when I was young :)
Although there maybe certain restrictions, I still think its cause you guys are concern.
Thanks mummy and daddy 4 everything and your support through this crucial time.
Although I din't perform well for prelims Mummy and Daddy has been constantly saying "just do your best! Give it ur best! I noe u r striving hard".
I think this makes me more stress. However m motivated to study harder.
I brought 3 packets of tissues cause xq,jenn, janice and xiong didn't bring any.
N Ms Lee's note to us made my tissue paper finish so quickly.
She wrote about me and MJ.
Ok... MJ is currently out of my mind. But its gonna be temporary. It will return aft O.
N about xiao qing being a little cockroach... Hahax.
Ms lee really made so many people tear like mad.
First was Xiao Qing, then Jennica, then xiong, then Xinyi and even luo xi and Janice cried...
First time seeing luo xi and janice cry.
My GOODNESS! How could that be??? Actually I think all of us were touched and we cried over the messages. Brilliant! :D
After everything ended was Mac with Jenn, janice and Qian Ci...
We had fun toking about many many funny things.
Xiao qing told me she feels like crying cause she is so gonna miss the good times she had with us.
XQ! Like what we always say, till death do us part! Lol.
Yup! That's it! How can we ever part?
Or better still, there will never be a last time when we c each other.

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
We will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
We will be there!
Never will anyone of us walk alone.
Our friendship is just this strong and remember our promises made?
From 15 till 18, till marriage, till kids.
Come on! It will definitely last.

Since this is my last post, I guess just wanna post about my goals.

Have good results.
Travel the world using my own abilities and money with mummy & daddy
Get done and over with O levels.

This is where I think my blog will end and I guess will only blog aft O levels. From now on no com, no tv.

Only form of entertainment BOOKS! :D

Pictures will be uploaded on facebook...

2mrw is yet another tiring day with tuition starting from 8. After all, that's sec 4 life.

Special thanks to my beloved xiao qing, janice, jennica, mei ping and xiong for the great times.

Also, like what I've always say.

No matter where I go, whether my baby will be super fair with however many strand of blonde hair, u guys will definitely be invited to u should noe what lar... Just make sure u guys turn up.

N to janice, jenn, xiong and xq. I m pure fair. White lady, yes yes. Janice, I didn't bleach my skin or get poisoning ok.

U funny gal... Definitely gonna miss u guys like crazy! :D Maybe I miss u guys until I end up in hougang resort... LOL...

2009-09-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

I dun understand y duh sudden change in u.
Whatever it is, u really change alot.
My Os are coming up and I just have to say, I dun wanna be affected by ur disgusting behaviour!
Somehow, u changed from some1 who is forgiving to someone who is evil.
I dunno what has happened to u.
U changed from someone who cared alot to someone who is plain ignorant.
I pray to lord to help me watch over u.
I pray to lord to help me change u to the person I once know u as.
I should say, I m giving up hope on u.
Go ahead with what u are doing.
Its up 2 u and the lord to change who u r.
~God Bless!~
MOOD: PISSED, DISAPPOINTED,LOST
I JUST WANNA BREAK FREE, SCREAM! AND RUN AWAY...
My beloved clique, I need u guys as my shoulders to cry on and a place where I can run... :(

2009-09-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

Whoo... 2dae is a half day for school.
Afterwhich, went AMK hub for breakfast I suppose with beloved meiping, xq,janice,xw and jenn.
Had much fun and we found some interesting topic which we tok about.
But this topic made me pissed and I pray to lord to take him away from me as he will only do harm to me and some others around.
I pray for peace and safety everyday.
___just looks like a demon to me.
___just looks like a bastard.
___just looks like a lunatic madass.
But still have to thank my beloved frens for toking to me and also sharing with me.
XQ,MP,XW,Jenn, janice, thanks for the time today.
Everytime I c ___ face, I will think about the things I shared w u guys.
Actually I feel so much betta after sharing it with u guys.
M oso hounoured to have so many beloved frens, the 5 of u whom I can trust and share my sorrows with.
Those whom I turn to at my darkest point of life.
May god bless the 5 of them. I lurve them a plenty.
Bless these 5 who are caring, loving and fun to be with.
Whenever we are 2gether, my sorrows just disappear.
Thanks babes! :)
Afterwhich, daddy came to AMK to fetch me.
Daddykins went to buy medicine and my vitamins.
Guess he spent quite a lot 2dae.
While daddy was paying, I noticed people staring at me.
When I turned over, I saw the 5 babes.
Was super funny...
They started laughing at me. Lol... I dunno why.
Although my heartaches, my promise is to continue smiling.
I will always remember.
Smile though your heart is aching.
Smile whats the point of crying?

2009-09-23T19:44:00.002+08:00

Prelims results are bad... Goodness.
Think I really disappointed parents.
Gotta work for O levels so I m gonna have no time to blog anymore.
*****************************************************************
Things change and people change.
I used to tell u my secrets and my problems.
But u seem to change so drastically.
Now I understand.
I just don't understand what is going on with u.
But all I know is that I can no longer trust u.
I will never trust and have faith in u.
U chose this path so I think everything should come to an end.
I dun see any need in cherishing ur friendship with mine already.

2009-09-23T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hahax... I found Michael Jackson doing a new penguin style.
Watch it! Its leaked video. So cool and funny.
Gosh!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAzMT-jOgwE
I pray to lord to reveal those who killed MJ soon.
He was an innocent, adorable, sweet and loving man.
How on earth does he want to do 50 shows?
He was being forced to.
Is it suppose to be his 51t birthday gift?
He suffered in silence...
God bless.

2009-09-20T16:16:00.002+08:00

Editted my blogskin cause I think this blogskin looks so much better than the previous one.
I may have left out some names or whatso ever but pls tell me.
N oso, I appologise for that cause it was rather random.
Btw, woke up at 9.
Had breakfast.
Then out for jogging at 10.30am.
Stamina is like getting lousier now cause have not been running for weeks.
So gotta run every week to maintain my stamina.
Btw, officially end of prelims.
But that just means start of mugging for O levels.
Didn't do to well for prelims.
Haiz... Results still not what I expected.
Friday after physics MCQ was crazy time with beloved xq,janice,luoxi,jenn and Meiping.
How can there never be fun with them around.
Had lots and lots of fun and about me communicating with the deads esp the 50 yr old.
Recently, there has been loads of problems coming in one after another.
But I m sure these are not gonna affect my life and emotions.
There is just this bunch of irresponsible and annoying "monkeys" I should say.
Creating troubles.
Get this clear Monkeys!
What comes around goes around.
Whatever u do to hurt a person, karma will come to u one day!
U monkeys ought to behave urself!
Although I noe its crude to call ppl monkey but in the first place, I dun think they deserve my respect.
In order for ppl to respect u, u should respect urself.
Dun expect respect to come knocking on ur door if u don't even bother giving ppl the basic respect.
This is a basic thing in life.

2009-09-15T21:23:00.003+08:00

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our DoubtsAnd Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

Its hard for me to accept the fact that u r no longer with us.
The world collapsed on 25june when u pass on.
At least we know that u r by the lord's side and u dun have to suffer all the pain that u went through.
I would like to thank lord for bringing you to this world and sharing ur talent with us.
Your musical and dancing talent.
Indeed, now the angels want you to share ur talent with them.
I miss ur sweet smile, the cuteness in u, the undying heart to heal the world.
The smile of urs no one can ever have.
U smiled though ur heart is aching for u no there is no point crying.
No matter how things were, u stood firm and remained optimistic.
I love the time when u conquered the entire stage and make people go crazy.
You are no long the "King Of Pop" But rather the "GOD OF POP" in the eyes of ur fans and u serve as an inspiration to all of us.
Beat It! You are not alone.
How could this be? You're not here with us?
May the lord watch over MJ's family.

2009-09-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 4.15am.
Dead beat. But no choice.
Had to sent my beloved maid off to the airport.
She will be leaving us for home.
This is the day I hated most.
I prayed hard for time to stop.
Unfortunately, not everything will go along with my decision.
She has been with us, going through thick and thin together and sharing our joy and sorrows for 2.5 years.
And all of a sudden, she wants home!
She wants to leave us for her family.
How are we to live without u?
I want to know.
I dunno, I just feel at utter lost.
I just can't help missing you.
Who asked you to bond with me and be there for me when I was down?
When I have problems, u often talk to me and tell me to behave.
U tamed me!
And now, u r leaving us.
My Heart is Breaking!
But I have to move on with live.
May god bless u in life, no matter what u do.
I just wanna say, I love u!

After that, homed to nap.
Went out at 10am.
Went to maid agency again.
Then daddy fetched us to wisma to buy my dress for prom night.
After that, went takashimaya with mummy to get my clutch bag.
Just getting my clutch bag and dress costs $200.
Actually, went to mango and saw this dress for 129 but mummykin says I look fat in it! :(
Its nice... I love it! MANGO!
At least the dress that I bought in the end is nice. I love it too...
But 1 thing is it is super costly.
It costs more than the average price of daniel yan's dresses and gowns.
Btw, I think daniel yan is having some kind of promotion stuff.
Thanks daddy for my prom dress and mummy for my clutch bag.
Then Xiao Qing called and asked to meet me.
Mei ping and xiong came along.
Missed u guys.
Then dinner with grandparents, parents and cousins.
Fun day.

This post is suppose to be dated 4/9/2009
Ok... I think so far, only xiao qing noes this prob.
Know what?
On this date, my new maid (not the one who has just gone home).
I've got 2 maid then.
The name of my old maid is y and the new maid's name is l.
Y asked my grandparents and parents to allow the new maid to come over so that she is able to teach the new maid how to do wadever.
Y does not noe L and they are total strangers.
So that is y Y does not noe L is so cunning.
Guess wad did L do?
On 4/9/2009, L took Y's money(630 dollars) and her hp costing(300).
N she ran away from my hse.
When Y came home, she noticed the gate was not lock and she came into the hse only to find that L was gone with her luggauge.
So Y quickly came upstairs and called for sis and I to help search for L.
Damn L! Made me waste my time.
I was suppose to be able to study for 3 hours and I ended up in the police station with my beloved maid Y and daddy.
We were there until 12.
Worst thing! She took the whole bunch of keys to our house and daddy had to change the lock.
Good Luck L!
Lets see how r u going to get into our house!
Like wad the maid agency and police said, u can't run far.
U will be caught one day.
So now, we are left without a maid and I m "enjoying" the "fun time" doing housework.
This sucks!
Think I have to use so much more moisturiser. lol...
And L! U can't get anywhere with only ur stupid luggauge and ur boyfriend!
Ur passport is not with u.
So seems like u have to enjoy a good time swimming across the borders and even so, I think you will drown.
Just our luck to have such maid like you.
For the past 16 years or more, daddy had been hiring so many maid (so far 9 I tink cuz 2 years each) and looks like we have a great prob with this B*tch.
Happy escaping! All the best huh!

2009-09-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GT7QWwhOPNw
View MJ's funeral here!
Love him! God bless! :D